20241106 - 12:00
This morning during our pre-work meeting, at the end someone asked Roshi if he had anything to add. “Trump has won the election. That is all for today.” Today has been filled with temptations. To shed responsibility by the power of community. To take an easier path. Sometimes I almost convince myself that I’ve been a fool. But I can’t quite. Not as of yet. I am quickly gaining things: valuable relationships, a sense of purpose. Things to lose. So much easiter it was when it felt like I had nothing, to let go. The evening mirrors the day. An old friend texts, asking if I’m interested in a job. I am oh so tempted. To stay here for a month, then put all of it behind me. Get a job, apartment, take it slow. I know where it would lead. A road steadily dwindling away from here. Away from liberation, justified by the belief shared by my surroundings; that it was all a hazy dream.