20231105 - 12:37
Yesterday we watched a movie. The second time for me. I’m thinking of ending things. It always makes me feel.. super aware of myself. Of whatever is going on inside, and the extent to which that is all that there really is. It hit Hanna quite hard. As for me, well, it brings me back to a familiar state. It brings me back from the belief in solidity. It makes me recognize just how futile, first of all, but also, how fundamentally unnecessary, such a belief is. Things are as they appear. Or maybe not. Either way we can go with that chaos, instead of pigeon-hole:ing ourselves into thinking that we know something at all. Without expectations, how can you be shocked? Just riding a cosmic wave, is all.
On another topic, I miss just writing. Somehow I’ve gotten the idea that it has to be readable. Which is a load of bollocks, of course. I’m not writing for you, out there. It’s for me. Now I’m gonna wash the dishes. And cook some food.